Urban Research Theater Newsletter - September, 2006 I was deeply surprised to discover recently a piece of writing I did in the summer of 2003, before I moved to Poland. Here are some excerpts:
The two sentences in bold print are the ones that it shocked me to find. The first describes the method of the Workcenter, which I have so many times tried to explain to people since encountering their work: "I decided not to design the experience of the audience, but to design the experience of the actor, and see what followed." The second is striking because it uses the actual terminology of the Workcenter long before I knew about them: "There is only doing and witnessing." I did not realize that I had articulated this intention so clearly before going to Poland. Perhaps it is not so uncommon for people working in theater to ache for the kind of "realness" they perceive to exist in possession rituals. Probably many actors today feel that the constraints of production, as well as their own atheistic or agnostic worldviews, prevent them from having the kind of "total" experience that can exist in cultures where the sacred and the performative are assumed to be related. Grotowski seems to have believed that for a person in this predicament (one who is not connected to any performative sacrament) the only possible route towards such experience is through work on technique. The heart of his work was the profoundly uncommon assertion that "every spiritual teaching can be translated into the language of master techniques." In other words, rigorous technical work can lead to a recuperation of the experience of innocence, not because religion and craft are themselves related but because both provide ways to approach the nondiscursive, nonrational, nonjudgmental parts of the human soul. In Grotowski's work, the details of Stanislavski-based acting work take the place of religious belief. The rational mind cannot understand this, because it would separate acting and religion according to whether the participants believe that their visions are "true" or "real". People who call themselves religious might also dislike the idea, because it seems to suggest that their theology is merely a construct of fantasy; while working actors might take such an assertion as an attack on the professionality and sanity of their work. Perhaps only the clinically insane would agree immediately that the world is not as simple as the categories of "real" and "imaginary" suggest. Undoubtedly, there is a part of the human being which does not analyze the rational or objective truth of things; which does not care whether its experience is widely communicable; and for which imagination and theology are not significantly different. The question is: What do we do with this part of ourselves? What role does it play in our lives, and where can it take root? The difficulty comes with language itself: As soon as we say "it is only my imagination" we become mere artists, disengaged from the real world. But if we say "no, it is real," then we risk that a church will be founded on our visions and used to suppress those of others. We must find another way to talk about these things, or else not speak of them at all. --- Exercises for the reader: What visions, imaginary or sacred, play in your heart? What have you striven for since before you learned that some things are not realistic? What would you believe if you were not concerned with being right? How does your current life align with that vision? Has becoming realistic amounted to a turning away from this vision, or to its realization through different means? Have you achieved your vision, either momentarily or permanently, or does it still lie in the future? Have you stopped thinking in these terms, or do they come less often than in the past? Or do your dreams still permeate your waking life? What about these visions could be dangerous? What kind of dialogue exists between your dreaming self and the adult you have become? Ben Spatz
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